Today is Father's Day. It was hard to imagine being a father when I was a kid. Now that I am a Father of 3 almost 4 it is still clear as mud. Am I doing it right? Will my boys look back fondly on my choices or think I am loony? I am guessing it will be a mixture of both.
I heard someone say this week that guys don't ever wake up on Mother's Day and ponder their Mother's imperfections. Girls might but guys don't. Instead guys use Father's day for that kind of reflection. We wonder why they weren't more loving, expressive, sincere and gentle like our Moms.
The fact of the matter is Dad's are Dad's. They are not Mom's nor do we need them to be. Father's serve a very different purpose. My Dad and I are very different but very much the same. While I toil away at my own business having never worked for anyone other than myself in my professional career, he has been with the same company for 35 years. On the other hand I inherited the same dry sarcasm that has invaded both our lives. That same sarcasm has probably cost both of us our fair share of enjoyable moments together.
While we can all find things about our Dad's we will never want to duplicate there are some nuggets we all need to cherish. I wanted to take a moment to recall some memories and lessons I learned from my Dad. Not the normal stuff like how to ride a bike, shoot a gun, box out, hit a 3 iron or general toughness but some more obscure stuff.
- My Dad's dad is a bit of an embellish-er. When he tells a story everything in it is bigger and badder than anyone else has ever experienced. Growing up and hearing the stories then again thru my Dad's filter has given me the heart of a skeptic. I can pick out BS from 73 miles away. LESSON: LET YOUR YES BE YES AND YOUR NO BE NO. DON'T ADD TO THE STORY
- I had at least 2 sacks, I know I recovered 2 fumbles, I nearly scored a touchdown on defense but the ball rolled between my legs. I was flying all over the field. It was maybe by greatest achievement on a football field. After the game I was carrying my muddy, sweaty self to the locker room. My Dad was standing by a fence with Mr. Mercelliot. I was excited about the game I had played and even more excited about the trip to Christy's Pizzaria with all my teammates. I asked my Dad if I could go and he said "maybe". I responded with "c'mon, I played a great game!". My Dad spoke a phrase I have never forgotten. "Don't ever say you played a great game. That is for your coaches and teammates to decide." I know my Dad will never remember saying that but I never forgot it. It has served me all my life. If you have to tell someone you are something then chances are you probably aren't. LESSON: ACTIONS SPEAK LOUDER THAN WORDS
- He taught me how to shake a man's hand with conviction and look him in the eye the entire time. Not to hand someone a "dead fish" and look at the ground. Nor do you try to break someones hand, that only screams that you trying to make up for some other deficiency. Shake firmly and confidently.
- He taught me that every one's favorite subject is themselves. When speaking to a client you concern yourself with their history, not your own. If they want to know about you I am sure they will ask.
- I remember being in Tennessee as a second grader and living in, what I considered to be, a huge home. It had a large deck and a massive hallway that was perfect to race cars down. My dad was probably 23 years old and we owned a home. My mom drove a Pinto but we OWNED our home. It took me until I was 27 to own my first home and even then I had no family. My parents have never in their lives owned a new car or anything remotely close. We never took elaborate family vacations. We never bought designer clothes. We didn't eat out much. We didn't have new furniture but the places we put the used furniture was always owned. LESSON: OWN A HOME AND DON'T WASTE YOUR MONEY ON CRAP.
- Growing up in frigid Tennessee my Dad found it novel that you could actually play golf on Christmas Day in Florida. He would take me and some neighborhood kids to play golf nearly every year around Christmas. I think that is so he could call family and say "Yeah I know it's 15 up there. It's 75 here and we played golf today." It wasn't just Christmas that we played golf. It was nearly every day off he had when I was a kid. We played Bonaventure on US1 where my game matured and my wedge play blossomed. I think I was better with my short game from 9-13 then I ever became after that. It's that love for golf that he instilled that got me on the radio on Saturday mornings to talk golf. That radio show came in handy at the 1996 FSU Alumni Gathering where I used that show to invited the Lady Seminoles to appear just so I could meet a girl. I met a different one (the one who ate milkshakes every day and killed birds with her bare hands) and married her. It's also that love of golf that is the source of my Father's day gift. Amy is not buying me a tie or some other useless trinket. She is allowing me 7 uninterrupted hours of US Open coverage in gorgeous HD from 3 to 10.
- One day, when I was probably 11ish, I came home from school to find my Dad at there. This was quite bizarre because he was never home on a weekday. He asked me the question every child longs to hear -- "Do you want to play a video game?" Up until that point I don't think I had ever played a video game with my Dad. I was pumped. I raced into the living room to set up the Atari 2600 only to find the most glorious sight my young eyes had ever seen. A shiny new, just released for the 2600, copy of PAC-MAN. Words can't describe what that moment felt like. No other kids were going to have it. No other Dad's would go buy it. I can't remember if he played or just watched me play that day but it was certainly something I never forgot.
- I have a sincere love for classic rock that was born thru WDIZ Sunday Morning Classics. They played from 8-12 every Sunday and I remember always wanting noon to come quickly so they could get back to regularly scheduled Van Halen. It wasn't till later that I realized that I loved Creme, The WHO, Rolling Stones, Led Zepplin, Moody Blues, Fleetwood Mac and so on. No good music has been made past 1994 and the music of the 70's only makes today's music SUCK that much harder in comparison.
- Lastly ( I could write forever but it's almost 4AM), when I got my Senior yearbook I was excited to see how many times my studly 3 Year Letterman-self appeared in those black and white pages. I had a girl who sat next to me in History say "I like what your parents wrote in the yearbook" as she chuckled. Oh crap, what did they do to me!! I raced to the back of the book to see what kind of horrific humiliation I was in for. Next to the 600 entries of "GOOD LUCK" -- "WE LOVE YOU" -- "CONGRATS" -- "WE KNEW YOU COULD DO IT" was my Dad's parting shot of my high school career. Standing out like a sore thumb was not the normal well-wishing. It was a life lesson. A little nugget he used to throw around now made public for all my classmates to live by as well. It simply said -- Brian, Life is time and time is life. What you do with your time is what you do with your life. We are confident you have the tools to make the right decisions. Love Dad, Mom and Jason It is very true and certainly something to live by.
I hope I have taken my tools and built a life pleasing to my Father. More importantly I hope that my efforts as a Father and husband are pleasing to Amy and the boys. I hope the things I am doing with my time are going to bear fruit in the form of a good and happy life for my entire family. Either way, it will be a long time before I hear how I did from my boys.
Sometimes the tools are heavy. Sometimes the tools need to be sharpened and tweaked. Sometimes the tools wear me out. In any case, I am glad to have my set.
Thank you Dad for my tools. Happy Father's Day. I love you.